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    Friday, November 06, 2009


    HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BRO!!!

    During Biology class @ 4pm (when we were plotting graphs),
    Me: May I go to the toilet please?

    *rushes out*

    ...

    *takes out my phone and dial my house number*
    Dad (sleepily): Helloooo?

    Brighton: 4pm, SG: 12am.

    Me: Hello Daddy ar!

    Dad: Girl ar, what happened? Why are you calling at this time? So late already?

    Me: I want to wish Kor Kor happy birthday! Call him leh!

    Dad: He's sleeping.

    Me: Wake him up luh!

    Dad: You wait ar...

    ...

    Bro: Hello? (lethargically)

    Me: Ah Di happy birthday!!!

    Bro: Hello? Hello?

    Me: Ah Di can you here me a not! Kor kor ar!

    Bro: Hello?

    Me: Kor, Happy Birthday luh!

    Bro: Who are you ar?

    LOL AT THIS POINT, IN MY HEART, I WAS LIKE "WHAT THE HELL?!" HAHA

    Me: It's me luh! MEI MEI LUH!

    Bro: Orh why leh?

    Me: Happy Birthday luh! Ok BYE BYE!


    HAHAHAHAHA I BET EVERYONE WOULD FORGET THAT I CALLED AT 12AM WHEN THEY WAKE UP LATER!

    I shipped a parcel to my bro too.
    Don't think he has received it yet. I think most probably within the next couple of days?
    Wanted it to be a surprise cos' apparently everyone thinks that I've forgotten my brother's birthday!
    But how could I have forgotten?

    I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH. \)(/

    5:41:00 AM

    Thursday, November 05, 2009

    John called me!!!
    Omg talking to John now!
    Haha aw so pathetic cos we're like rushing for time!
    And we used to talk for hours and hours during midnight in SG and now, we're freaking out when it's 30mins already.

    $_$

    LOVE


    12:53:00 AM

    Friday, October 30, 2009

    Cambridge&London.

    Howdy! I'm back. Have been busy with so many tests each week and it's finally the mid term holidays which I've long anticipated, although it's just a miser of 5 days. :S
    Mann.
    So I went to cambridge and London.

    Oh God, I really suck. I haven't upload thousands of photos. No updates.
    All which I've been doing these days is to just tweet.
    Hahaha so go to my twitter page! 
    There's only a 10 pathetic plus latest updates which are shown in my blog so i you wana see more, click on the "follow me on twitter" link, just below the updates kay.

    I'm so lazy to blog what I did in Cambridge n London, so I'll just copy and paste my entire twitter page from the time I woke up on wed morning to now!
    HAHA see, i tweet my entire life out. that's why i like twitter so much more as compared to blogging.
    I'm not a twitter whore. So not.

    & FYI, if you wana read the tweets below in chronological order, you've to start reading from the ones right at the bottom, to the ones on top. HAHAHA. & my twitter clock/time is tuned to SG's time. GST 8. 

    Have fun reading! If you even bother to...

    HAHAHA love you guys!

    belindaong


    1. even told dad&bro tt i went 2 watch e arsenal match@ emirates stadium.dad thot i really went!JK of cos!i ve been ingestin breakfast since 11
    2. so i duno how much i spent but i know its a lot n i dared nt even dare to go check. doubt it 500 srsrly. i think.
    3. haha when i skype w my fam jus now, mum asked if i spent 500pounds when i went to cambridge&london cos i told her i ve been use e debit card
    4. @alibalatong hey jess can u @reply me. i wana see if i can receive it by sms! tq!
    5. "我不想被你牵着走。But if I give it up, I'd lose my mind."
    6. just organised the twitter lists thingy~
    7. finally noe how to manage my updates via sms settings.Am receiving tweets thru sms now. Can conserve hp batt by reducin use of ubbertwitter
    8. I'm thinking of bathing then going out to settle some stuff. Hmm
    9. Jus made myself instant breakfast. Campbell chicken soup. M&S porridge. Milo.
    10. Completely lazed in bed for the past couple of hours. How unproductive. Haha
    11. Omg I'm still in a state of shock bout last night thingy. Geez.
    12. Just left a voicemail for ka to tell her tt I dun feel like goin to seven sisters today. Too tired to go climbing. Z_Z
    13. @kakabobo haha I don't understand you at all! And you joined twitter and facebook!
    14. Haha e security guards were really funny when dey came bk too.
    15. Just went down to get my id.we were sittin on e floor waiting for e security guards who went for patrol.played childhood games!
    16. Ordered a chinese restaurant delivery set for two pple for £26 w momoe. Food was so delicious! Den talked to arnanti in my rm till so late.
    17. Freezing
    18. Wanted to tweet HOME SWEET HOME when I drop my ep1 lenses. Wtf
    19. Need to pee. Shh shh...
    20. On the gatwick express. It looks more classy. Haha. Think it s faster. It will go bk to brighton after goin to e airport. Hungry n tired!
    21. I'm so sleepy!
    22. @ e london eye.but nt sittin it alr cos e queue s so long. besides sg flyer is taller ha.hair is purplish red.Left w big ben n london bridge
    23. Bought I <3>
    24. Just went to the national art gallery. Going to buckingham palace now yay
    25. Msn-ing with yueli! :P
    26. I'm gona punch e bloody assistant is she screws up. V angry. Lack of sleep la
    27. My head is fucking burning la
    28. I'm feeling e pinch now
    29. Doing hairrrrrrr Z_Z
    30. London cabbing again XS
    31. Iove e autumn leaves! Finding our way to chinatown. Ka just stepped on dog shit. Lol
    32. Hyde park!
    33. Lol reg said I was sleep talkin ytd while I was dreamin bout ghost. Slept in b/w ka n reg. Hehe. Exploring london todaeeeeee XD
    34. Lol reg said I was sleep talkin ytd while I was dreamin bout ghost. Slept in b/w ka n reg. Hehe. Xllondon todaeeeeee XD
    35. Ohaiyo!
    36. In e hotel. Ate super ex steak. £17!
    37. Some people r just gross n weird right?
    38. @dradramama I left alr! U didn't tell me! N good luck for econs XD
    39. RT @allkpop: Kim Bum in London http://bit.ly/27WiM omg maybe I ll get to see him! XD
    40. @Jerlynn haha I ve no idea where tt is. I'm gonna leave tom. Haha geez maybe I ll meet along e streets randomly haha
    41. Done w cambridge! Gonna take train to london now. Bought one of the Cambridge university sweater hehe :]
    42. On the boat along the river. View is splendid!http://pic.gd/ec0ebd
    43. In a chinese restaurant. Lunching
    44. Autumn leaves! http://pic.gd/5b44a9
    45. At Cambridge alr. Slept. Yawns
    46. Saw e emirates stadium. Arsenal!
    47. @Jerlynn yep! Haha the place where I'm stayin is near king s cross station I think.u? Haha yucks school!
    48. Takin e train to cambridge now. I'm so sleepy!
    49. Isn't king s cross station e one in harry potter? Gona go find tt platform
    50. In the cab to king's cross station to take e train to cambridge!
    51. At london victoria station!
    52. On e train now. Its moving lol! Omg lyk suaku lyk tt
    53. Haha we re supposed to meet e rest at nine. And we re gonna b late geez. Lalala
    54. Off to e train station! Haha I'm switchin off all my bb apps so as to conserve batt cos Im chargin it lyk twice/thrice a day. So excited! XD
    55. Just called john to say that I'm leaving today hehe. Talked to jo for a while too. Gah I'm still packing. Hope my bb is fuLl charged b4 I go
    56. GET OUT OF BED BO!

    10:43:00 PM

    Tuesday, October 20, 2009

    SURPISE!!!
    I did a nice thing yesterday.

    I called people in the middle of the night (singapore time), about 4am plus?
    So those who were lucky, or unlucky cos' i woke them up as their phones are not switched off, they get to answer and thought that it was a dream.

    LOL.
    Those who were sleeping like a pig, too bad.
    HAHA.

    Those who actually thought voicemails weren't of any used, managed to listen to a crappy surprise message which I left behind.

    Those who were pathetic to leave their phone switched off slept through all the way undisturbed, not knowing that BO was actually missing them.

    AW what a sweet thing I did.
    *smugs*

    9:40:00 PM

    Sunday, October 18, 2009

    Another weekend is gonna be over and I still haven't replied everyone's emails, send out emails regarding my contact details, update my blog and facebook with loads n loads of photos.

    That's procrastinating for you.

    Pathetic as it can be.
    Somebody slap me in my face.

    11:02:00 PM

    Saturday, October 17, 2009


    belindaong

    1. I'm so tired and worn out. Will the stars shine brightly for me tonight?

    7:03:00 AM

    Wednesday, October 14, 2009

    I  LOVE
    This week is gonna be a very busy week.
    Same goes to next week.
    And the following week.

    (Chemistry assessed practical tomorrow! *cringes*)

    Oh the endless cycle repeats itself.
    Oh how I savour some of my escapades in between my hectic monotonous schedule.
    Oh how I can't wait to end the waiting and begin the long awaited moments.

    I want to go to Venice during the mid-term break.
    Hopefully, we'll get things sorted out soon.

    Cos' we only have 2 weeks worth of time left.
    2 weeks more and it's the end of all my numerous weekly tests.
    2 weeks more and it's the end of all my midterm examinations.

    2 weeks more to the end of my life in Brighton, Part 1.


    "The skies are blue; the seagulls are calling; 
    Everything is playing in a beautifully coloured tune."

    3:07:00 AM

    Sunday, October 11, 2009

    I talked to Bala on the phone just now for quite some time, while I was having my brunch.
    Talking to her is one of my many leeway to channel all my stress out of my mind.
    Sometimes, you really just need a listening ear.
    Your thoughts are desperate to be heard.
    I think that actually makes you feel very helpless and that makes you feel like a weakling.
    Yet, I'm not ashamed to be one in front of my friends, because there's nothing I can hide from them anyway.
    They know me inside out, even better than I know myself sometimes.
    It's alright to rest on someone's shoulder sometimes cos' we ain't the Man above us, we're just humans.
    We ought to feel weak at times.
    I guess that also makes us feel alive and breathing whenever we think that there's no purpose for everything.

    She made me realised who I'm actually missing and who I thought I had but not in fact.
    I don't want to be missing some people in the form of a habit.

    9:09:00 PM

    Saturday, October 10, 2009

    “I’ll be there for you like I’ve been there before.”

    I woke up today and I realized that you are not by my side anymore.

    I’m here all alone, without you.

    I’ve to fend for myself, I’ve to do everything on my own.

    Suddenly, I felt so lonely, so upset that you can’t be my side 24/7 anymore.

    I can’t call you anytime whenever I wanted to because we are not only a thousands of miles apart, we’re 7 hours apart too.

    And this time difference is what makes you and I feel so separated.


     


    11:20:00 PM

    Wednesday, October 07, 2009

    The Missing Part



    I think I'm missing my night life so much :((
    I miss those late night outings with eirelav (gosh i took so long to spell that!), I miss supper with John at newton, supper around the neighbourhood with Chris as well, I miss clarke quay, I miss eating 50% off at cafe cartel after 9pm, I miss walking under the starry night sky and enjoying the night breeze as we chat.

    For Pete's sake, I've no freaking night life here because it's so dangerous to go out in the night.
    So I'm constantly going to the common room to have fun, peace, joy and laughter.
    What the shit was that? LOL.
    Nah, I go there to mug.
    & I got my nails painted by Momoe yesterday.
    Plus I was listening to Wai Leong and an iran girl and nigerians talk politics.
    Kay, Social Studies don't help much when you have a lawyer-to-be around you who speaks like I duno what! lol but he can't read aloud with a normal voice tone!

    Back to the topic,
    I really miss night life.
    As you might have known, I heart the peace and serenity in the night whereas I loathe the sunlight.

    I've not much emotions nowadays.
    I choose to remain stoic for everything.
    I realised that I've to remain calm and settles down when I'm all alone in a foreign country, no use bringing my paranoid personality here...
    Because at the end of the day, you'll just on your own nerves.

    So, I've never once said FML when I came over.
    And I would never, because it's the path which I've chosen.


    3:28:00 PM

    Tuesday, October 06, 2009

    Got back at around 10 30pm plus.
    We went to the large common room at the cyber cafe there.
    I did some research on my voluntary work and sent 2 mails in.
    Yay at least something for me to say when we have the medicine meeting tomorrow.
    After that, i decided to slack around and I went to the security guard office to get the ball to play the table soccer.
    HAHA.
    I love drinking hot milo and eating biscuits in the hot weather!
    Haha I practically had my supper in the room. HAHA.
    So we played table soccer for nuts.
    We played with some russians, this khazistan (spelling?) guy and the SGreans -wai leong, rebecca & ananti.
    Haha we had the SG team.
    And when rebecca and ananti left, it was only me and wai leong.
    And for Pete's sake, my reaction time is so slow!
    and wai leong kept saying, "just hit the ball forward hardly. dont care about the rest!"
    i suck at being the goal keeper! Geez.
    Haha he was so patriotic that he sang the national anthem (he even knows the russian one!) and many other national day song.
    Oh wait, I just remembered that he said he's a msian actually but he decided to serve the SGrean army (NS)!

    Shit, I'm still so lazy to upload photos. OH GOD.
    and im so dead, i've been trying to work my internet just now cos apparently the wireless at the common room sucks. No signal one.
    And I forgot that I had to meet John on skype!
    Oh dear. and now, my mum.

    ~Janneh!

    6:43:00 AM


    The internet was so fucked up just now, since noon.
    I was skyping with John when it suddenly got disconnected and it carried on, on and off.
    WTF.

    Glad it's alright now.

    Didn't even get to talk to John much!
    Poor John, gotta wake up at 5am later to skype with me.
    Grr Grrr...

    So anyway, in the evening, Regina and I went out. We planned to get her phone contract done.
    It was like around 5 45pm when we went out and we knew the shops close super early here, but we still wanted to try our luck.
    Yes, so we were not surprise that all the shops were indeed closed.
    After that, we rushed back for dinner and here I am.

    I'm about to sleep.
    No I'm not actually. I meant, I'm very sleepy.
    I just made myself a thermal flask full of milo. Yum Yum mmm...
    Gonna go over to Hsin Qin's later to give him some milo packets too.
    And then Regina, Momoe and I are gonna go to one of the common rooms to chill + study cos' studying in the room makes you feel so cooped up like you're in a cell.
    HAHA.
    Shall bring some food go too.
    I'm still pondering on the fact that if I have gained weight since I came here.

    2:31:00 AM

    Sunday, October 04, 2009

    Saturday's Mid-Autumn Festival
    Morning was mostly spent on continuos packing and rushing to the bank to change my particulars.
    Oops I haven't sent you guys my address. Oh my God I'm so sorry, I'm zombified right now.
    Alright I suck.

    Regina came over during noon and we talked, played with my olympus e-p1, and went outside to wait for Hsin Qin.
    Gosh the weather was freezing.
    The temeperature has already started to turn cold.
    I doubt I would survive winter! I DON'T WANA TURN INTO A SNOWWOMAN! LOL.

    So after Hsin Qin came, we decided to go have another walk again.
    Walked to the hove beach, just down my house and whewww, we were fighting against the strong and cold wind which was blowing us away.
    Everyone was walking with their heads down! HAHA.

    After that, we took a cab to the college.
    God, my luggage is so much more than what I've brought here a month ago.
    So many bags and stuff. 3 people can't even handle them.
    HEAVY HEAVY HEAVY.

    After we reached the college, Joanna came down to help us too!
    Haha yes, imagine how many stuff I had.
    And then I finally got to bring everything into my new room.
    So the next thing was about the position of the furniture in the room, namely the bed, drawer and wardrobe. 
    I wanted to rearrange them, which translate into MORE HARD WORK.
    I'm so thankful and grateful towards them! I wouldn't have managed to shift all the way here without them! :P

    My wardrobe has no hangers so I can't unpack my clothes -which is the largest and main bulk of everything other than my stationaries. 

    I unpack the rest of my stuff until dinner time when Momoe and Regina came over.
    We had dinner with Wai Leong and Hsin Qin and those 2 SGreans guys were talking like a bullet train that both Momoe and Regina don't understand a single word that they are speaking. Haha they think that SGreans speak very fast!

    So after dinner, Regina and I went out to Macs to meet her other friends, initially to go to the beach after that to go 赏月! haha. but then my soles are still hurting so we went back after that.
    We went to Marks and Spencer and I bought lots of snacks!
    Haha I haven't really eaten tidbits since I got here so I decided that I should go for a shopping spree hunting for SNACKS.
    I love the Marks and Spencer here cos they've got so many kinds of stuff and it's like so fun to shop in there!
    Haha yeah with the exorbitant prices too!
    I remembered once I bought a prawn pasta and a milk coffee for lunch which cost me around 5 pounds plus! :S

    When we were walking back, we met Ka, Shine and their other friends at Brighton Train Station.
    They were coming back from London!
    Haha what a coincidence.
    Ka couldn't help me shift house today cos she was going to London.
    She even smsed me in the morning to tell me she was sorry. Aww how sweet. Haha. I told her to get my something from London but she offered her train ticket instead LOL.

    Next is the super random thing.
    Haha we went back to my room and then Regina helped me cut my fringe!
    Hehe and then I helped her cut hers!
    Haha supposed to call Hsin Qin at 9am to come over to watch Notting Hill but then we delayed it till 9.30pm.
    But then I wanted to go bathe and etc so in the end, Hsin Qin came over at around 10 plus.

    So three of us were in my room snacking plus drinking MILO! Yay I miss milo. I introduced milo to regina!
    HAHA i don't think she finds it exceptionally nice but i guess it tasted fine to her.
    I MISS MACS MILO. IM GONNA GULP DOWN ONE LARGE CUP OF ICE MILO WHEN I TOUCH DOWN AT THE AIRPORT IN DEC KAY. WATCH ME DO IT. O_O

    Gahh I was at the verge of falling asleep when we were watching the movie.
    Haha Regina and I were super tired.
    I think I'm gonna watch Notting Hill again! XD
    Anyway, I actually still managed to get most of it despite the fact that I was zombified and was laying on my bed.
    I find the move very sweet!
    Aww especially the last part when Julia Roberts said that she's gonna remain at that place INDEFINITELY when asked about the duration of her stay.
    That one word which came out of her mouth brought the move to a very sweet ending.
    Although after that, there's still more of it so I didn't literally mean the end of the movie.

    DONE. 
    the moon is full and round! 
    And bright! I love it.
    i'm gonna try getting my mum to come online now since I won't get my internet username and p/w until next monday from the student service.
    I'm using Hsin Qin's account right now.

    Am feeling so lethargic! 
    So many work and stuff to do plus maths test on mon.
    UGH. Zzzzz....

    8:18:00 AM

    Saturday, October 03, 2009

    Hi everyone, just a quickie!

    I'll be moving to the college residence aka the hostel aka the dormitories from today onwards!
    Yep later :))

    I'll be moving in temporarily till January when I return from my winter holidays.
    After that, I'm gonna homestay together with Regina (although we're gonna have single room each).
    So yup!

    I'll blog more on next week cos I've spent a whole nigh packing stuff till now, and I've to unpack later plus do my homework and study for my maths test tomorrow!
    I'll try to find time next week to upload photos kay.
    Meanwhile, I'm gonna send out emails write now (finally!) regarding my contact details.
    If you haven't receive any/want one, just drop me a message to tell me so as I might have accidentally missed you out! HAHA.


    Till then, ciao!

    7:38:00 PM

    Thursday, October 01, 2009




    OUT- OF -EMO -STATE

    2:07:00 PM


    Social Studies format

    The purpose of the previous post is to emphasise on the overpowering sadness I've been feeling in these couple of days so as to continue to strive for an even depressing state of mode.

    So not.



    Dear God, 
    I've sinned so much, hurt so many people, done so many evil things which through this, I found myself superficial satisfaction, synthetic happiness and a heart which is built from my own selfish desires.

    I know I've done so many wrong things, but I know even clearer that I'm trying hard to stop hurting people, to be a good girl. Not one which has gone bad. I'm constantly seeking for the purity and naivety mind which I've once strongly possessed when I was young.

    But as all odds fall against you, you really have to give in to reality sometimes.
    And giving in doesn't mean giving up. It just means that you've learnt to accept some things and not succumb to the obstacles. Not defeated.

    Yet, YET, 
    the harder I try, the more people I hurt.

    Will I ever be forgiven?

    In Jesus most precious name I pray,
    Amen.


    I LOVE YOU. I really do. But I'm sorry that I've hurt you.
    I'm so sorry. 

    12:47:00 AM

    Wednesday, September 30, 2009


    belindaong

    1. &just when you thought you've moved a step forward, you realise that you're back to square one. Reality can be so hurting.So hurting indeed.
    2. I came to conclude that Life is really about a never-ending cycle where every single thing repeats itself over and over again.
    3. not good at all. just cried.
    4. oh dear this is looking bad.

    3:19:00 PM




    Cooked Food.
    Only Man cooks the food before eating them.
    Only Man uses a fire to cook the food.

    The rest of the animals don't. 
    But how does this simple act (of us lighting up a fire and then use it for cooking the food) separates us from other species?  

    It's not about killing the bacteria in the food.
    It's not about a case of eating eat raw or not.
    It's not about having the intelligence or an innovative mind to go about carrying this out.

    Worst still, it's not even about making the food tastier.

    Have you even wonder why we cook food?

    Actually, the answer is very simple.
    It goes into the basics of life.

    Why do we cook our food?

    Digestion.

    Yes, because of digestion.
    Cooking the food makes it softer and easier to digest and...
    To some of you, the answer might have been out of your mind the minute you saw this question.
    But to some, you might have complexed the question and come out with theories which you deem so logical.
    And of course, I'm the latter.
    That's why, I've learnt today that the human brain is so complex.

    And this complexity gives rise to our complex mind/ thoughts/ beliefs which we will never be able to fathom, decipher and comprehend.

    3:52:00 AM